I am Sonnie Asher Brooke

I am Sonnie Asher Brooke Kaulitz
And this is my story!

The fate in my life desires alot of incomings and outgoings
Things like wanting to LOVE more than I do
but not being able to

to show my numbers... coming in and out of my wallet
when, why cant they stay in there forever!
eventhough i buy EVERYTHING!

being able to make it up to myself in my goals...
CHALLENGE everything!
just go to the STUDIO SING MY HEART OUT!
DANCE ACADEMY! if i could
HAVE A WHITE PURE GRAND PIANO waiting for me every morning... just to play my piece thats calling to jump out!

or maybe just wanting to relax myself...
being alone!
JUST ME AND MY HEART!

sitting infront of the computer all the time
makes me realize what I can do

its not as easy as I plan!
FINISH 4 CHAPTERS OF
ADDMATHS, ACCOUNTS AND ECONOMICS IN LIKE 3 weeks! highly impossible!
but right now...

THANKS ALOT!
for making my life more miserable!
it really helps when you lose something you cherish the most
then again!
ITS HARD TO FULFILL ALL YOUR NEEDS IN LIFE

eventhough, at some point you just may Die... right?

Something I would Dream

If anyone asks me,
"Sonia, what would be THE SOMETHING that you would dream of doing!
I would say
My dream is to be an awesome Musician and singer
go all around the world... singing my HEART out!

but, another something that i would really dream of is
DANCING!

DANCING!!!

I love to dance...
one thing that no one knows about me is that...
I dance all the time

IN MY ROOM!
PARTY'S... everything!
I JUST LOVE TO DANCE
its all about feeling the music!
not about destroying the BEAUTY OF DANCING!!!!

one day... i hope I could dance... like THESE GUYS!
=

I UNDERSTAND WHY YOU MADE ME DO IT
BUT, I JUST THINK ITS NOT RIGHT!
YOU MADE ME NOT HAVE A CHOICE!
I HOPE YOU THINK AGAIN ABOUT WHAT YOU TOLD ME!

I'm Sorry For All The Pain, I really Didn't Mean it Darling

Something Strange Happened

Today, i woke up in the morning thinking everything will be ok
Came back from school still thinking the same
Until i logged onto Facebook

something strange just came up to my mind...
I cried like nuts the moment I saw it.. everything..
Since then i knew...
I have to do whats right?
trust me Darling... i'll always remember you... everything..
I do love you! alot... your my Bestie.. :)
trust me when i DO THINGS KAYH?! love you
but one things for sure... its really...

GONNA BE HARD TO SAY GOODBYE!
I have my own boyfriend... its unfair to him that I'm doing all this..
God's shown me a way!
i'm taking it...
love you!

Before The Worst

Before the worst
and before its too late, things, we, gotta make it change.
I'd never wanna lose you, i'l do whatever it takes.

Its like a dream that your heart makes
Fairytales and Fables
nothing ever happens the way you plan it, even your own heart may go wrong.

But one thing's for sure..
NEVER LET GO OF WHAT YOU ALREADY HAVE!
cuz once you do, it may be really hard to get it back.

Dreams Do Come True

you mean the world to me

Its been a year, 6 months and a few days.

i cant get over the fact that i'm still with you
the longest relationship yet, the best

Evinder Singh,
you're the most special thing in my heart
nothing or no one else can ever love me the way you do
I just love you baby, i wouldnt mind saying it a hundred times..
I LOVE YOU!

even if, i may have looked at other guys, close to other guys
love them as my best friend.. or something like that
Trust me, only God knows how much more i love you

sometimes, we fight, things get so bad till " you know what"
we both may not know what to do or what to say right baby?
but in the end ( you know what ) ahaha and like, everything is just OK!

i know how much you dont like me talking to Roshan, Melvin, Sharveen Kishan!
i know baby, i wouldn like you to be close to any other girl
but, sometimes its hard to make guys understand
But, baby! you should understand

NO MATTER HOW CLOSE I AM TO ANYONE!
you're the closest to my heart kayh?
i love you so much!

looking at my future with you!
its like an awesome image!
THAT DAY BABY!, last week when you told me
once you get your car license, n buy a bike or car or something
you'l take me to this Awesome Restaurant that u noe...
and take me out... go Jusco...
take me to the beach, maybe wif my family during the holidays!
OH MY BLOODY GOSH!
did you even noe how excited i was b?! heeheee
i can't wait!

memories baby... nothing ever fades....
everything!
JUST SO FREAKING AMAZING!
every moment i spend with you
thinking bout whenever you lye on me, and i'l play wif your hair...
when we kiss...
awwwh! so beautiful baby.... simply perfect!
wish you were here....
My Evinder Singh
My Darling
My Baby, forever and ever!

and remember out promise baby?
KEEP IT!
we'll NEVER EVER BE APART!
eventhough.... something bad happens....
trust me... no other guy can match WHAT YOU ARE INSIDE AND OUT!
no one baby! no one!
I love YOU eVIDNER sINGH!

mwah!
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

more food for me

Happy Puasa, wishing all my beloved Malay fasting people :)

ermm... this means more food for me!
and that means Ramadan Bazaar

so today, i saw Evinder, he gave me back my camera, finally LOL
and yeah we hung out near my house for awhile
then i went back home
I called him, my mom was like who you talking to , i didn say enithing.

So i asked my mom whether we can go to the Ramadan Bazaar, cuz Evinder is there....
hehe, she was like "gimme the phone, i wann talk to him"
they were talking, and my mom said, "evinder, i have to shower then we'l come"

I WAS LIKE! WOAH! AWESOME SHIT MAN!

so we went there, and i saw him
he came said hey to my mom, grandma, sister and aunty!
HE WAS SO SHY MAN! seriously... baby! baby!
we walked at the back, and at one point we were standing so far
my momwas like "why ya'l standing so far, nonsense man!"
and i was like, OWH OKAY?! awkward much

then mummy bought us LIMAU AIS! i shared with him
it wasnt long, just like 30 mins or something.
but i loved it!

PS: shayna was shy, she told me she didn't talk to Evinder cuz she dun wanna disturb us! HAHAHA so freaking cute man! ")

xoxo
LOVE MY BABY!

Darling I Swear I do

Baby, I wrote you this song, to show you how freaking much you mean to me.
I hope you like it, (since you dont read my Blog)
i'l say that, if i manage to organize your birthday in December!
i'l sing for you kayh?!
I LOVE YOU BABY
forever mine, always and never apart! NEVER!

Darling I Swear I Do

(Verse One)
Somehow I dream that I would find you
something perfect
to keep my life going on

one day, I know i'll go around and when I get lost
The beat of my heart will make a sound
and you will feel the same
Riding, on the bike in the evening,
I catch you bloody well speeding
Our eyes had met, and I think our hearts had too

(Bridge)

Baby lets try calling
Tomorrow i'll come to you even though its boring
Just both of us all alone together

(Chorus)

Honey Sweet, Cherry Pie
baby sing me a lullaby
Cause when i hear your voice
i feel like i'm flying to heaven
even if you would scold me and i would cry
you keep saying baby I Love You
and please do try

I'l give you a hug and a kiss
to show you how much I do
Darling, I swear I Love You...

(Verse Two)
At 12 o'clock midnight, everyday
even though you're sleeping, i'll make your day
honey, just give me awhile i got something to say to you

I wait, later you tell me you lost your way
and i get all panicked! with nothing to say
You said i'm lost in your heart baby, I cant find my way to your soul

Just let me, shed a tear or two,
i'm so madly in love with you,
We're together for a year and a half
you make me think bout the days when we made out at last
its just one night only that i needed you in my arms

(Bridge)
we kissed in the rain
that night at the park
holding hands, talk in the dark
staring at the stars, out first dance at my party
Oh Baby!!

(REPEAT CHORUS)

sometimes i dream about our wedding
i don't want anybody else to put me that ring
its our promise, in September, did you remember?!

(Repeat Chorus)

forever i'l love you my baby
i'l never leave you my baby
my one and only baby
i swear, I Love You!

Dedicated to My Evinder Singh

time: apprx 9.34 pm